a website i used to love

hey! it's bee again, i havent made a real blog post in a while, i haven't really had much to talk about !! school has been kind of the only thing going on in my life recently to be honest so yeah.

anyway, while setting up my site radio, i began to think about what even inspired me to do this? what even introduced me to the concept of internet radios? i remember this old site i used to love called catgirl.party, its now dead but when i first stumbled upon it all it had was an almost empty site with an image and a radio playing some cozy video game tunes. i absolutely adored this site, it was a part of a few personal sites the owner had going and it was so awesome to me!!

for as long as i've been on the internet, i'd never really seen anything like it? these sites were one of the first times i ever saw personal websites that werent just generic landing pages, social links and similar, but a few websites crafted with love for not only a social link landing page, but also for fun !! to get things out there !! it was so cool to me that someone would make and host their own sites and projects like this that would be seen by so little people just for the sake of doing it!!

these sites, a series of nothing but a few personal websites run by one person who doesn't even know the effect they have had on how i go about the internet, meant a whole lot to me. as time went on i hadn't really thought about those sites in a long time, i've been in this part of the internet a few years now and i've seen so many things like it that still manage to make me as happy as those sites did up to this day !! and its so awesome, but i wanted to find those old sites again

most of those sites are gone now, i can't remember a lot of them or find others, these pages that at one point meant so much to me and changed how i thought about the internet as a whole are lost to time, all i have are vague memories and a single screenshot of the radio

i don't even have the original screenshot of this site, all i could find was a screenshot of my camera roll that happened to include this, i must've deleted the original screenshot at some point

while i know i won't be able to see this silly little site again, i am grateful that it existed, and how it inspired me to have a bit of fun doing things for me on the internet rather than chasing the meaningless goal of follower counts or whatever, and i hope that the spirit of this silly radio can live on in my own, stupid project

sorry for rambling, im sure this post is an absolute mess, even more than my others somehow, but i've been thinking about this a whole lot, how something that was so important to me could seem insignificant enough that i could forget about it, and how i will never be able to see these small, silly little sites again. if you find something online that means something to you, please archive it !! you never know if you'll go on a desparate journey to find it again in a few years time like i have

anyway, its getting late, i love u all, and i hope you are having a good day / night. <3